Your sitting in your living room, warm tears streaming down your face, and you’ve pretty much given up everything. You sit there and ask yourself, “Why am I here? What pushed me to this point?” After a while, it comes to you. The reason your life isn’t working out the way you planned it to is that you’re not putting forth the effort it takes to get the results you want. Whew!
Recently, an emotional breakdown prompted me to make some big, and some not-so-big changes to my life. Although I hated going through such an enormous meltdown, the end results were what I needed to start over fresh. Want to know more about the exciting changes I’m making to my life, keep reading!
The emotional breakdown that prompted a lifestyle change
September 10, 2020. A day that will go down in my book as one of the worst/best days of my life. I woke up that morning feeling uneasy, unsure of myself and my life. I made sure to force a smile to avoid the questions and concerns of those around me. I went on about my morning routine:
- Wash the dishes
- Start laundry
- Fix breakfast for the kids
- Brush my teeth
While the morning was going well, I felt the need to cry. I held in my tears until I put my kids down for a nap. As soon as my kids were resting in their room, the tears poured out of my eyes. I sat on the couch, sobbing quietly, and my mind was racing with thoughts of failure. Out of my mouth spewed these negative words:
“I’m not going to succeed.”
“I’m unable to do anything right.”
“Why am I like this?”
“Nothing I’m doing is making a difference.”
I’d hit an emotional rock bottom, again. I allowed my tears to flow for a few minutes, and then all of a sudden, something unexpected happened. Peace. I don’t know why, but after that breakdown, I began to see things more clearly.
I stood up from the couch, walked over to the living room window, and this thought came to the forefront of my mind as clear as day:
“It’s time for you to own up to your faults, let go of all of that mess holding you back, and do what you need to do to make sure your goals are achieved!”
At that exact moment, I kneeled down to pray. I asked God to heal me in all areas of my life and to help me through this process of healing and growth. Once I finished praying, I wiped my tears away, stood up, and said out loud:
“I’m capable of succeeding and growing in the areas I need to grow. No more will I allow anyone or anything, including myself, to hold me back from reaching the goals I’ve set for myself. It’s time for a change, and on this day is the day it’s going to happen. Let the journey of growth, healing, and success begin!”
New hairstyle… AGAIN?!
Is it just me, or does a new outlook on life mean doing something drastic to your hair? I know it can’t be just me. Cutting my hair, although I’ve done it several times before, is such a relief in the sense that I’m cutting away dead, damaged hair to make room for healthy hair.
As much as I love having long hair, I absolutely love the ease of taking care of short hair. Seriously, all I have to do it moisturize and go.
My goal in this healthy hair journey is to allow my hair to grow healthier, stronger, and longer without coloring it or unnecessarily cutting it (believe me when I say it was hard for me to say I won’t be coloring my hair for a while).
I’m going to give you guys monthly updates on my hair growth, products I’m using, and tips that I’ve learned along the way to take better care of natural hair.
It’s time to FINALLY reach my fitness goals
For the longest time, I’ve been saying that I want to build more muscle and slim down my midsection. I’ve built strength, but my core still looks a bit sloppy (not cute). Not seeing the results I would like to see only means one thing: I haven’t been putting in as much work that I need to. So, being in better shape is going to be a massive part of this new journey.
Along the way, I’ll be sharing with you my fitness goals, tips, workout routines, and progress. If you’d like to join me on this quest of getting into better shape, comment down below! We can do this together and hold each other accountable.
If I want to accomplish anything in this lifetime, I need to get as far away from my comfort zone as possible and make it happen. I have so many great ideas and plans for “Armored with Faith” and a few other projects that I’m working on that I need to start putting myself out there a bit more.
One thing I’ve wanted to incorporate into my blog is video. Short videos of me speaking about whatever the blog post is for that week, or whatever that comes to mind that pertains to my blog. I’m challenging myself to step out on faith and make those videos happen!
I need to put myself out there more often. Like, how are people going to know about my blog or anything else that I’m doing if I’m not promoting it? My fear of being seen is going to have to be conquered.
The journey starts NOW
If it’s one thing that I’ve learned in my life, if you want something, you’ve got to go out and get it. You can’t expect someone else to hand whatever it is that you want to you. You have to be willing to admit that there need to be some changes in your life and ready to make those changes happen.
That emotional breakdown that happened to me a few weeks back was a wake-up call. It was either I make the necessary changes, or my life was going to continue spiraling out of control. Tired of experiencing what I’ve been experiencing, I’ve made the conscious decision to do better, live fearlessly, and walk with my head held high. You can’t see what’s ahead of you if you’re always looking down or back.
One way to ensure that this journey will be a successful one is by journaling each and every day of it. I have my new journal, bought specifically for this new journey, ready, and I’m excited to fill it with excellent news and ideas.
So, join me as I embark on this journey to becoming a better version of myself!
What are some lifestyle changes you’re making to your life? Comment down below! Have a fantastic day!!